In pschology they teach that when we are born are brains are empty.
Then life and our elders and ourselves start wiring our brains.
Now you are at an age where it is up to you to tweak, accept or change your brains wiring.
If you want what someone else has got do what someone else does.
If you want what a Christian does think and do like a Christian.
If you want what an atheist does think and do like an atheist.
For example read the bible and Christian literature.
Or Read Richard Dawkins, Christopher Hitchens, and secular humanistic literature.
There is no magic pill If you want Gods spirit in you you have to constantly ask for it and
cultivate it.
If you want a spirit of the world and atheism you have to ask and cultivate it.
The good atheist are on here 24/7 cultivating their atheistic spirit. You have to do the same thing
if you want Gods spirit.
If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything.